writing my thoughts down, thinking quickly many things walk around in my brain as i type, typing fast this was done in nearly thirty seconds, or was it, oh i dont know i guess youll never know especially if i dont know if ya'll can handle that, i trust you, i think you can do it, ya know hold all that information technology together.

i would call that long blather of sentence fragements something along the lines of im guessing here......freelance writing. kind of like when your art teacher in grade school would tell you to just kind of draw whatever you want in a short period of time. the drawing can tell you a lot about a person as well as the writing, i mean if i were you i wouldnt take too much from it it was honestly just what came tim mind very quickly, who cares, but i think everybody is catching my drift though.

im back in school,im going to keep this short and sweet. ive been in for what im going on here second week and its ok. i commute, that sucks, i am looking for housing now. something will pop up good shortly, i hope. i changed my major from business to communications hopefully this well help me out with some decisions but the big one wont be changed, concert venue=still on the roadmap. and um i guess i have to buy books. school has been fun, its early but only time can tell the future. we shall see, blah blah blah.

me and caitlyn had a laugh fit in the car today, that was fun, it was the whole ride home, she thinks shes funny, well she is but just dont tell her that, she thinks she is funnier than she is ;) i kid but i am still funnier. :P i think that is the keycode for sticker outer tongue guy. And 102.9 called and they told me to tell caitlyn that BUFFALO SPRINGFIELD sing that song. paul. check. one. love you.

the guys from northstar broke up some time ago and they started a new band its called cassino, its good stuff i like it better than northstar and northstar was a-ok in my book. its a bit slower but perfect for the mood when i first heard it. check them out at purevolume.com or something. i could send files as well, whichever you prefer. i still listen to circa survive a lot, i like them a lot, coheeds new one is spinning, chiodos and the fall of troy are magnificent as well, hell, equal vision is rockin muh socks.....

that is all for now i gather buttttt yeh we shall see about later....i dont update, this i know, but um.....back off.

Put me up on stage, let me dance, ill groove all night. Dont let the music stop, im gonna keep on grooving to the ghoulishly grave grooves escaping your guitar. I am down for whatever, lets do it now, i want to do it now. I can feel it close, here it comes, creeping up, crawling up the woodwork, into your brain from my mouth, take it, dont drop it, its serious, its creepy. You feel it, right? I know you do cause i am no doubt singing. You like it, dont lie, why lie when you should just let go, do what your ghost tells you. Spinning around, dancing, pulling your body from here to there, leave your head behind as your feet creep forward, let them go, detatch what you dont need. Pure passion? You feel it. Take my picture, youll need it, you want it, here it is. Take what you want from it. Savor the craving, its there forever.


take what you want from this

poem/song/composition of words. I dont know - enjoy though, none the less

It's friday, i like the way that friday feels, its an end to a excrutiating work week and the beginning of a not so tough weekend. The weekend does fly by though none the less and it makes me mad when i have to go back to work again on monday, but everybody hates monday, Fuck Monday! Willy Wonka and Wedding Crashers come out this weekend at the movies, both look good and watch, you'll see, i will probably wind up at the movies twice this weekend somehow. Saturday it looks like i will be going to visit Mr. Briggs up in Bucks County for a rafting trip down the river. that should be relaxing, and i think its safe to say i need some relaxing. I dont have too much else to touch on only that all yall should listen to and support good music. One of my favorite pins says that "I support good music" and is basically saying that most of peoples taste in music is honestly awful. I wish you all could understand my art of thinking. Remember now, People Before Profits, and corporate america can suck a big one, especially RadioOne(company who changed y100 to rap overnight) and ClearChannel, god damn those money hungry fools. but thats all he wrote, so..... till next time, later days

Listen to "Clap Your Hands Say Yeah"

note to self must download:
Statistics new CD

Inspiration, usually when i write down thoughts something inspires me to do so. recently i have been inspired and thought about writing some thoughts down but still couldnt pull myself to do so. Inspiration can be good and it can be not so good, i prefer the first of the two inspirations but yeh ya know what , Whateva. There used to be puppets called Sifl and Olly. They were bad mouthed sock puppets who some how got a recording contract. With this contract the two bumbling idiots made a song called "The United States of Whateva" Why Puppets got recording contracts amazes me but i guess if you think about it there was men controlling the puppets, so maybe they got the contract cause you sure as hell know that Mr. Sifl and Olly the happily married couple wasnt spending any of their hard earned money on booze, just crack. Crack is crazy, dont do it or youll wind up like Sifl and Olly one day, in somebodys sock drawer, and i dont think anybody wants to be confined to a sock drawer for an extended period of time. Enough jibber jabber, lets get to what i really want to talk about, or no wait i really have no reason for writing, just to make time go bye in work a little quicker or am i secretly without even knowing going to write the deepest in thoughts. ::sarcasm::

As of late i have been content with life and all of its surroundings, i go to work monday through friday and get paid every two weeks, Damn the Man. I work because I must, but id rather be happy and work isnt making me happy. The same daily routine gets old and tired but this is only temporary, a mear stepping stone to greatness or to find euphoria in life. Im trying to get a job at the Troc or TLA or something along those lines where i could get some good experience in the Concert venue business. I promise you, i will open my own concert venue soon enough, whether i stay in school or not, It will happen. ok , next subject.

It is mid July and the heat is just sweltering. My room is a mess, it desperatly needs to be cleaned. Think the opposite of Martha Stewarts jailcell, Thats what my room is looking like. I have to about a thousand pounds of wash. I hate washing clothes. I wash em as i need em i guess and thats starting to get annoying, any voulunteers to wash my clothes for money "hit it up aim style son" as ya know, Not Paul would say. I hate rap, its cliche and god awful. I still think about how i used to listen to y100 on the radio, when it was good ol fashioned DECENT music. Radio blows anyway but most of you know that already.

I have no other qualms about anything, atleast nothing notable at the time so start endless blather now. Oh yeh, I cut my finger today cutting a breakfast bagel. It was poppy seed and not even worth it, it was stale and get this, the knife, nah it wasnt a CutCo or anythign special, a simple too sharp for its own good butter knife. who gets cut by a butter knife, its like cutting yourself with a nail file. I deem my cut awful, i was dumb to cut myself.

Ben is a weiner, he like my soft hands

**Circa Survive** saw that show the other night, oh what was it? Saturday the 9th of July. The show was down at the TLA on south street. I love the TLA for it is an intimate setting where you can see a good show at a good price, and oh yeh its real loud. i like loud, hence my loss of hearing. I feel as if the only way to listen to music is loudly, so my advice to you, play it loud, play it long and ummm play it ?hard?. hah, that was funny. im dumb. But anyways, Circa Survive show was reaalllllll good. They played for an hour and only have a cd and ep out, they played a lot of stuff and even had an encore of Handshakes at Sunrise, it was real nice. Hometown shows are always the best, and always get the best response from the fans. Anthony Greene has an incredible stage presence and dances like a fox. I met him at West Chester and he LYkE OmgZZzZz!!!!1111!!1 signed a book that i bought it was sweet, hes a real nice dude who is down to earth and isnt gonna let this buzz surrounding him change who he is, a true musician in my book, although hes only a vocalist, hes still a musician. Emanuel played before Circa and put on a pretty tight show, ew i hate the word tight. they sold their cd for 5 bills so i decided to pick that up, although going into the show i told myself id buy a shirt. oh well i already have a circa tee and emanuels shirts were da Ugly. Another band Arms of Orion played, they were A-OK in my book, nothing toooo special. I missed a band before them but was told they were also da Ugly. Amidst the chaos inside of the TLA it was Greek picnic weekend and that simply means that there was lots of *whispers softly* black people running around in their recently bought G-Unit T-Shirts and Shorts that arent really shorts but closer to pants but not really pants. na mean?

Last but not least, id like to talk about how i am happy in my relationship, i am in love and loving it (makes sense, eh) :) So as Read Yellow says "let's leave baby, on the next train"

Till next time, later days

bamboozle is real soon and thats gonna be reallll good

i am listening lately to.

Say Anything
Circa Survive
Cursive
Northstar
Aesop Rock
Bloc Party
Q And Not U **alot
Read Yellow

im swamped with school work and not much time to do it. that is never good, school is almost over, this is good....i guess that is all...till next time...later days

real update soon

i guess that i am writing this right now because its early on a saturday, i kinda have to be up and its a little too early to be talking to anybody....so....on that note lets start. last night was good friday night and there was almost zero people left here at temple, i stayed for whats the point in going home that early, although i will be leaving on later this afternoon, like 2ish i am guessing. but last night i went out to a party, it was fun, i had a good time mostly because me and steve won 5 games of pong for the span of almost two hours, it was a good run, and im sure we must have been hated for winning, put pshhhh thats what those bitches get. all in all the party was fun and the temple star chinese food after was delicious. um lets see, ive been using ebay alot lately sold my mp3 player and bought the clone high (remember that show) dvds, they only had one season until it was cancelled, but in its short life it was hysterical and enjoyable to say the least. i also bought natural born killers, but, i have never seen the movie, only heard good things, but i like to take chances. i can almost assure my liking of the movie still but its still a big guessing game, so, yeh you know. but lets look to the future, that is much more promising than the past always. i am going to the bamboozle, a three day concert of punk rocks finest acts. 150 bands pretty much and just so many good ones that i would love to see, its going to be three warped tours in a row, yeh who woulda thought that was possible. this is going to be better though only because i am staying in a hotel, and its in asbury park. bands will no doubt be staying in the hotel. its really going to be absolutely incredible. lets call it punkStock for the time being, except without all of that mudsliding that went on at woodstock. i have also decided that my favorite place to be ever is in a moshpit, not only can you just let loose, you get to here the smooth sounds of the band all up on stage. anddddd before the bamboozle i get to go see taking back sunday at westchester university, too bad it sold out quick enough for anyone to know about it or get tickets too it. too tell ya the truth though, i wouldnt have been able to go if it wasnt for sam who bought me and camby tickets without even telling me, that was extremely nice of sam. its greatly appreciated. and t han what else is on the horizon, ahhhh, the decemberists, they are ofcourse going to be oh so good that is on may 5th and than possibly weezer on may 10th i would love to see weezer again especially if they are playing the electric facory, which they are so, yeh i hope that all goes down, but again i must go so till next time....later days....

caitlyn, i love you! signed, paul this is me updating my journal

i am listening to an amazing mix of music that i put on my mp3 player the other day right now and it just sounds spectacular, its a straight up indie mix that i really am enjoying right now, and oh yeh jimmy eat world is on it too, i love their song "work" off their new cd, its quality....i had an art history final today and that went pretty well, i hope it went well atleast, than english class today was pretty boring, didnt do too much of anything except learn how to cite different kinds of articles, lyke omg neato by golly...and now im back in my dorm typing away at this journal....i enjoy writing my thoughts down, its sort of like therapy in the way that you can let your thoughts be heard(by who, i dont know, but still)....i didnt go to bed last night till 530, that was probably dumb because im going to be ridiculously tired in about an hour or so, but i have class than, boo...there is snow on the ground outside and it really isnt too pretty looking, its actually kind of ugly looking, it doesnt even look white, it looks grey....and grey is the color of depression, or maybe thats blue, but it doesnt matter, they both are depressing....speaking of blue being depressing, pablo picasso went through a blue period when he was depressed and painted all his paintings blue, the old guitarist is my favorite piece from picasso in his blue period....enough about that though....i really need to go see the salvador dali exhibit at the art museum soon, hopefully this sunday i can do that up like a spaniard(sp?)......i feel like reading a book so im gonna get to that....so till next time.....later days

smile

miss lovely asked, i am updating my journal, although it was no doubt about time....i believe a half month or so....well todays date is the 16th and that means that there is only 12 days left in the shortest month of the year....so lets review the last month, well maybe not the last month but ill go back to last thurs atleast, the 10th i believe that was, ahhhh yes it was indeed the 10th, i checked that little date and time thingy-ma-bobber in the lower right corner, i actually always use that....pretty neat if you ask me....but im really getting off topic, SO... back to what i was saying, so last thursday i went to a concert, ahhhh a concert, how nice, i went and saw the dillinger escape plan at the first unitarian church....ive never been to first unitarian so i really didnt know what to expect going into the show so it was indeed going to be an adventure to say the least....got their at 730 for doors at 800 and i didnt have a ticket, got in line and waited patiently in the cold with steve and mike....i observed that everybody at the show was wearing a black hoodie or stomping boots, it was rather interesting to say the least, scene kids crack me up, they think that they are different and all and unique and what not yet they all look the exact same.....funny, i laugh at all yall bitches ( i kid ). I mean i wouldnt neccesarily rule out that i dress according to my music but i guess i just like the style, na mean! so than was the weekend, that was fun, i got drunk or did i.....oh yeh i love caitlyn, shes t he best girlfriend in the world, and that brings on the infamous valentines day.....it was on a monday this year and that means that i had a full day of classes but i decided to not go to one of them, so booyah.....but onto the more important subject manner, caitlyn....this day is dedicated to her and she deserves all of the attention...we met up at around 730 that night and we exchanged gifts...ofcourse i was instructed to open mine first and i got two shirts and an 8x10 picture frame that had happy valentines day written along the top and paul and cait at the bottom and in it goes a picture painted by leonardo at dave and busters...love you....than we went out to ristorante panorama and had a great meal, we ate quail, i t was a delicous treat, like royalty.... i had a great valentines day, i love you!! so thats all he wrote....till next time....later days p.s. feeling great

so i havent updated in really the longest time...so here goes...im back in school now and january has come to a conclusion...the first month of 05' was okay, but in a way im just happy i got through some things...i feel like i have no real grip on life anymore, and as modest mouse once said i kinda just "float on". finding a nook in life isnt all that hard, but ive yet to find mine...im sure its all about chance and opportunity but we shall see how all that goes...i dont think but i also dont know if im the pnly college student who want just to skip college and get on with life...ya know, get an early start on things without all this bullshit meaningless schooling for 4 years, pshhh....i figure theres one thing that i want to keep the same in my life but honestly everything else could just end...i also feel that i am experiencing one of the best things in the world regardless to how depressing this entry sounds...thank you for bringing me those feelings...but i really would like to get away, pack up one day and leave with the one i love....just go somewhere and make a life instead of follow a path....oh well maybe one day my dreams will come true...i feel like this is enough for me to write about for i have possibly said to much...sorry this entry wasnt all happy but thats just how i feel...so till next time.....later days

another note: next month will be magnificent, its february, its cupids month