"can’t afford to be just one in a flock"
fro?
Wednesday, November 5
november the fifth......wat a day, well not really, just a normal day and my first full day of being 18 like thats some big deal but anyway....it was wedensday(sp-yeh cant think right now) but it felt like a monday to the fullest, im guessing because we had off yesterday.....so anyway....next topic....i wore my fro to school today and it was funny sure but no more people atleast for awhile...special circumstances only. i hav alot of things that i don't wanna do at all this week and weekend coming up. class, work, work , work, work and did i mention work....but the paycheck should be healthy and ill finally have some money to spend on my spoiled ass. and im in another one of thos wierd ass moods now that my birthday is over and im aloud to feel not happy.....its just this feeling that i left something behind that i did wrong in the past that is kinda coming back to me now, not to long after....if that makes any sense...o well let me be but o well life is life maybe things can be fixed soon, hopefully
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Birthday....WAT!
Tuesday, November 4
yeh since i no you all care.......
......It's My Birthday......
i want you all to leave me a bday message in the comments
......It's My Birthday......
i want you all to leave me a bday message in the comments
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pintos bash
Sunday, November 2
well now that im home from pintos cause my parents got cool for a bit n let me go but i bleev i am still grounded let me tell ya a few things.....well i never thought id be so upset leaving such a fun place... im talkin bout pintos.....it was great time had by all but as i was leaving all these ppl r like it was so glad to c ya n that they arent gonna see me in a month all that stuff... it was like i was leaving the last party in high school before we graduated everyone was saying goodbye for such a long time 2 me.....well id like to give a great ol thank u to all my friends... thanx for makin that last night out for a while a fun one and i hope u had even more fun when i left... thanx.....heres a lil advie i figure id right up for ya here
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br& new
Saturday, November 1
that was my best halloween ever tonight. you may argue that going out n gettin candy is fun or a party where u get drunk is better..... but i am goin to hav to disagree wit ya on that one. ....nothing is better than a live concert perforemed by the amazing BRAND mother fuckin NEW.....seventy times seven pit was even more insane than last time and it just flat out rocked....Br& New-----(get it tha "and" sign) is one amazing band who knows how to put on a punk rock show.... one of the best this year but im extremely bruised and insanely headached<--yeh i said headached. Halloween rocks and hope ya all had just as much fun as i did. rock on!
ps- download sum brand new stuff
ps- download sum brand new stuff
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one more day
Thursday, October 30
what is this mood i always feel myself falling into week in and week out.....it feels like a mix between confused,depressed, and hopeless. i dont even no what to think anymore at all. i feel lost like im just walking around the globe with no real purpose. i mean sure i hav a purpose in life but finding that damn person is just flat out terrible. confused i am and confused i a gonna be. its crazy, honestly i dont even no what to write in this thing right now. getting yelled at constantly by my parents because the need someone to bark at when they get home is not one bit fun. this constant headache is not the best thing in the world. another thing i just love is how my parents try and force me to fold to what they want me to do. they made me take a terrible job that i would never ever want to work at.....and oh yeh hav i mentioned ive never even been there except when i went in for an application and interview. i start monday n its just fuckin gay.....than tues i hav a rehersal for modeling at 630 for a show on saturday at the concord mall....but im sure ill be scheduled for work or sumthing like that and i dont even no what the fuck to do about that......this could be one of the worst weeks of my life, no doubt. im listening to coheed right now and thank god for them keepin for keeping that last bit of sanity in me....im honestly about to lose it.....weekend should b nice and terrible considering im grounded......but 2morrow im goin to brand new only cause i had already bought my ticket and than ofcourse im gonna miss a party on sat..... and a good one at that but oh well
lets just say my penny is on tails
lets just say my penny is on tails
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not much to say
Tuesday, October 28
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again? yeh again!
Monday, October 27
look at this, i have another journal, hopefully this one will actually be semi-decent and wont only have a two week free trial till it turns to absolute shit, only time will tell. but yeh. My weekend was half decent this week. friday was fun although i wasnt able to see the streaker at the game but i heard that all i missed was a cottage cheese ass. now i no why the football games really arent my thing. ive always been really excited bout goin to them at the begining of the season than that passion slowly dies as i see how incredibly gay they actually are. i mean yeh ill go and cheer my ass off for the guys but i never got the whole thing, if they make playoffs hell yeh i'll go and dont get me wrong fellas its not you its just its not my cup of tea, ya know? well enough about that than saturday was a good time over at caseys lil shindig , a little to good of a time was had by me. before that i was out at shippensburg visiting there it was a damn far car ride 2:45 so i slept that cause it was damn early in the morning i woke up at 5, no good. got home around 5 ish. the school is damn nice but is sooooo rural. University of Rhode Island is still my number one choice and i still gotta visit bloomsburg and east stroudsburg i go to east stroudsburg sumtime next month, and i think i missed bloomsburgs open house's. college talk is scary yet exciting , scary in the way that im sayin goodbye to all that i no and exciting that i am gonna meet a whole buttload of new people. but the truth is i cant wait, and i really hope i get into rhode island, but i dont want to set my expectations 2 high so im not going to. sunday, wat a long long day. woke up at wat 12 or 11 cause of daylights savings time than i sat around listened to music, you know the whole pass time deal. than i had a gay ass runway show at get this......a nursing home....yeh real gay right, but wait it gets worse......we had to wear a halloween costume for one of the scenes......and i was never a big fan of halloween at all, i just dont like makin myself look stupid like that, like i said before its not my cup of tea. so i threw together some terrible terrible costume with an old black robe cloak thingy and a jester hat i couldnt even tell ya what i was supposed to be......but this year at berts party....wow your in for a treat. so after that gay ass thing i came home and had a birthday dinner for my brother which was cool cause we had steak and black forest cake which kicked mad bakery ass. oh yeh and by the way thinking sucks....its not fun one bit especially on a late sunday night when your listening to music for 5 hours straight. but we all know that i would listen to music till my ears dropped off.....i still think that one of the best things in this world is music and how it can relate to watever your are thinking or however you feel. its a cheap therapy and should be forced upon all minds.....thats plenty out of me... congrats if u read this far.....and ill spare you lyrics or a band i want you to listen to this time.....next time watch out tho.........
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