Inspiration, usually when i write down thoughts something inspires me to do so. recently i have been inspired and thought about writing some thoughts down but still couldnt pull myself to do so. Inspiration can be good and it can be not so good, i prefer the first of the two inspirations but yeh ya know what , Whateva. There used to be puppets called Sifl and Olly. They were bad mouthed sock puppets who some how got a recording contract. With this contract the two bumbling idiots made a song called "The United States of Whateva" Why Puppets got recording contracts amazes me but i guess if you think about it there was men controlling the puppets, so maybe they got the contract cause you sure as hell know that Mr. Sifl and Olly the happily married couple wasnt spending any of their hard earned money on booze, just crack. Crack is crazy, dont do it or youll wind up like Sifl and Olly one day, in somebodys sock drawer, and i dont think anybody wants to be confined to a sock drawer for an extended period of time. Enough jibber jabber, lets get to what i really want to talk about, or no wait i really have no reason for writing, just to make time go bye in work a little quicker or am i secretly without even knowing going to write the deepest in thoughts. ::sarcasm::

As of late i have been content with life and all of its surroundings, i go to work monday through friday and get paid every two weeks, Damn the Man. I work because I must, but id rather be happy and work isnt making me happy. The same daily routine gets old and tired but this is only temporary, a mear stepping stone to greatness or to find euphoria in life. Im trying to get a job at the Troc or TLA or something along those lines where i could get some good experience in the Concert venue business. I promise you, i will open my own concert venue soon enough, whether i stay in school or not, It will happen. ok , next subject.

It is mid July and the heat is just sweltering. My room is a mess, it desperatly needs to be cleaned. Think the opposite of Martha Stewarts jailcell, Thats what my room is looking like. I have to about a thousand pounds of wash. I hate washing clothes. I wash em as i need em i guess and thats starting to get annoying, any voulunteers to wash my clothes for money "hit it up aim style son" as ya know, Not Paul would say. I hate rap, its cliche and god awful. I still think about how i used to listen to y100 on the radio, when it was good ol fashioned DECENT music. Radio blows anyway but most of you know that already.

I have no other qualms about anything, atleast nothing notable at the time so start endless blather now. Oh yeh, I cut my finger today cutting a breakfast bagel. It was poppy seed and not even worth it, it was stale and get this, the knife, nah it wasnt a CutCo or anythign special, a simple too sharp for its own good butter knife. who gets cut by a butter knife, its like cutting yourself with a nail file. I deem my cut awful, i was dumb to cut myself.

Ben is a weiner, he like my soft hands

**Circa Survive** saw that show the other night, oh what was it? Saturday the 9th of July. The show was down at the TLA on south street. I love the TLA for it is an intimate setting where you can see a good show at a good price, and oh yeh its real loud. i like loud, hence my loss of hearing. I feel as if the only way to listen to music is loudly, so my advice to you, play it loud, play it long and ummm play it ?hard?. hah, that was funny. im dumb. But anyways, Circa Survive show was reaalllllll good. They played for an hour and only have a cd and ep out, they played a lot of stuff and even had an encore of Handshakes at Sunrise, it was real nice. Hometown shows are always the best, and always get the best response from the fans. Anthony Greene has an incredible stage presence and dances like a fox. I met him at West Chester and he LYkE OmgZZzZz!!!!1111!!1 signed a book that i bought it was sweet, hes a real nice dude who is down to earth and isnt gonna let this buzz surrounding him change who he is, a true musician in my book, although hes only a vocalist, hes still a musician. Emanuel played before Circa and put on a pretty tight show, ew i hate the word tight. they sold their cd for 5 bills so i decided to pick that up, although going into the show i told myself id buy a shirt. oh well i already have a circa tee and emanuels shirts were da Ugly. Another band Arms of Orion played, they were A-OK in my book, nothing toooo special. I missed a band before them but was told they were also da Ugly. Amidst the chaos inside of the TLA it was Greek picnic weekend and that simply means that there was lots of *whispers softly* black people running around in their recently bought G-Unit T-Shirts and Shorts that arent really shorts but closer to pants but not really pants. na mean?

Last but not least, id like to talk about how i am happy in my relationship, i am in love and loving it (makes sense, eh) :) So as Read Yellow says "let's leave baby, on the next train"

Till next time, later days

bamboozle is real soon and thats gonna be reallll good

i am listening lately to.

Say Anything
Circa Survive
Cursive
Northstar
Aesop Rock
Bloc Party
Q And Not U **alot
Read Yellow

im swamped with school work and not much time to do it. that is never good, school is almost over, this is good....i guess that is all...till next time...later days

real update soon

i guess that i am writing this right now because its early on a saturday, i kinda have to be up and its a little too early to be talking to anybody....so....on that note lets start. last night was good friday night and there was almost zero people left here at temple, i stayed for whats the point in going home that early, although i will be leaving on later this afternoon, like 2ish i am guessing. but last night i went out to a party, it was fun, i had a good time mostly because me and steve won 5 games of pong for the span of almost two hours, it was a good run, and im sure we must have been hated for winning, put pshhhh thats what those bitches get. all in all the party was fun and the temple star chinese food after was delicious. um lets see, ive been using ebay alot lately sold my mp3 player and bought the clone high (remember that show) dvds, they only had one season until it was cancelled, but in its short life it was hysterical and enjoyable to say the least. i also bought natural born killers, but, i have never seen the movie, only heard good things, but i like to take chances. i can almost assure my liking of the movie still but its still a big guessing game, so, yeh you know. but lets look to the future, that is much more promising than the past always. i am going to the bamboozle, a three day concert of punk rocks finest acts. 150 bands pretty much and just so many good ones that i would love to see, its going to be three warped tours in a row, yeh who woulda thought that was possible. this is going to be better though only because i am staying in a hotel, and its in asbury park. bands will no doubt be staying in the hotel. its really going to be absolutely incredible. lets call it punkStock for the time being, except without all of that mudsliding that went on at woodstock. i have also decided that my favorite place to be ever is in a moshpit, not only can you just let loose, you get to here the smooth sounds of the band all up on stage. anddddd before the bamboozle i get to go see taking back sunday at westchester university, too bad it sold out quick enough for anyone to know about it or get tickets too it. too tell ya the truth though, i wouldnt have been able to go if it wasnt for sam who bought me and camby tickets without even telling me, that was extremely nice of sam. its greatly appreciated. and t han what else is on the horizon, ahhhh, the decemberists, they are ofcourse going to be oh so good that is on may 5th and than possibly weezer on may 10th i would love to see weezer again especially if they are playing the electric facory, which they are so, yeh i hope that all goes down, but again i must go so till next time....later days....

caitlyn, i love you! signed, paul this is me updating my journal

i am listening to an amazing mix of music that i put on my mp3 player the other day right now and it just sounds spectacular, its a straight up indie mix that i really am enjoying right now, and oh yeh jimmy eat world is on it too, i love their song "work" off their new cd, its quality....i had an art history final today and that went pretty well, i hope it went well atleast, than english class today was pretty boring, didnt do too much of anything except learn how to cite different kinds of articles, lyke omg neato by golly...and now im back in my dorm typing away at this journal....i enjoy writing my thoughts down, its sort of like therapy in the way that you can let your thoughts be heard(by who, i dont know, but still)....i didnt go to bed last night till 530, that was probably dumb because im going to be ridiculously tired in about an hour or so, but i have class than, boo...there is snow on the ground outside and it really isnt too pretty looking, its actually kind of ugly looking, it doesnt even look white, it looks grey....and grey is the color of depression, or maybe thats blue, but it doesnt matter, they both are depressing....speaking of blue being depressing, pablo picasso went through a blue period when he was depressed and painted all his paintings blue, the old guitarist is my favorite piece from picasso in his blue period....enough about that though....i really need to go see the salvador dali exhibit at the art museum soon, hopefully this sunday i can do that up like a spaniard(sp?)......i feel like reading a book so im gonna get to that....so till next time.....later days

smile

miss lovely asked, i am updating my journal, although it was no doubt about time....i believe a half month or so....well todays date is the 16th and that means that there is only 12 days left in the shortest month of the year....so lets review the last month, well maybe not the last month but ill go back to last thurs atleast, the 10th i believe that was, ahhhh yes it was indeed the 10th, i checked that little date and time thingy-ma-bobber in the lower right corner, i actually always use that....pretty neat if you ask me....but im really getting off topic, SO... back to what i was saying, so last thursday i went to a concert, ahhhh a concert, how nice, i went and saw the dillinger escape plan at the first unitarian church....ive never been to first unitarian so i really didnt know what to expect going into the show so it was indeed going to be an adventure to say the least....got their at 730 for doors at 800 and i didnt have a ticket, got in line and waited patiently in the cold with steve and mike....i observed that everybody at the show was wearing a black hoodie or stomping boots, it was rather interesting to say the least, scene kids crack me up, they think that they are different and all and unique and what not yet they all look the exact same.....funny, i laugh at all yall bitches ( i kid ). I mean i wouldnt neccesarily rule out that i dress according to my music but i guess i just like the style, na mean! so than was the weekend, that was fun, i got drunk or did i.....oh yeh i love caitlyn, shes t he best girlfriend in the world, and that brings on the infamous valentines day.....it was on a monday this year and that means that i had a full day of classes but i decided to not go to one of them, so booyah.....but onto the more important subject manner, caitlyn....this day is dedicated to her and she deserves all of the attention...we met up at around 730 that night and we exchanged gifts...ofcourse i was instructed to open mine first and i got two shirts and an 8x10 picture frame that had happy valentines day written along the top and paul and cait at the bottom and in it goes a picture painted by leonardo at dave and busters...love you....than we went out to ristorante panorama and had a great meal, we ate quail, i t was a delicous treat, like royalty.... i had a great valentines day, i love you!! so thats all he wrote....till next time....later days p.s. feeling great

so i havent updated in really the longest time...so here goes...im back in school now and january has come to a conclusion...the first month of 05' was okay, but in a way im just happy i got through some things...i feel like i have no real grip on life anymore, and as modest mouse once said i kinda just "float on". finding a nook in life isnt all that hard, but ive yet to find mine...im sure its all about chance and opportunity but we shall see how all that goes...i dont think but i also dont know if im the pnly college student who want just to skip college and get on with life...ya know, get an early start on things without all this bullshit meaningless schooling for 4 years, pshhh....i figure theres one thing that i want to keep the same in my life but honestly everything else could just end...i also feel that i am experiencing one of the best things in the world regardless to how depressing this entry sounds...thank you for bringing me those feelings...but i really would like to get away, pack up one day and leave with the one i love....just go somewhere and make a life instead of follow a path....oh well maybe one day my dreams will come true...i feel like this is enough for me to write about for i have possibly said to much...sorry this entry wasnt all happy but thats just how i feel...so till next time.....later days

another note: next month will be magnificent, its february, its cupids month

underoath - they're only chasing safety
say anything - is a real boy...
my chemical romance - three cheers for sweet revenge
blood brothers - crimes

favorite albums of 2004....

do whatever you need to do to hear this music, now, and it promise you should like, any comments on these leave it here...

i am listening to theSnaketheCrosstheCrown right now, they are good, i suggest them to everyone, the organ is a really cool sounding instrument and i would love to be able to rock an organ. i bet you not to many people want to play an organ in their life, thats probably why id like it. it is just so deep and infectious. insomnia? ever here of such a thing, i think that i no doubt suffer from this demon. i cant get to bed before 3 any night of the week, no matter what. i figure that my body clock is all sorts of fucked up, i sleep during the day and am wide awake at night, like a vampire. im beginning to crave the taste of blood (i kid). anyway i would love to go to the art museum at some point this weekend. i went back in the summer but never got around to going back for another visit. note to self remember to skip the eastern asia exhibits, they bore me. im moving to the new england area when i can and im going to own a ranch with a whole lot of interesting animals. im beginning to get all run down from college and stuff, it just eats away at you, and sometimes it feels like each day is just getting harder. not to cool in my book. speaking of books, i should get started on my book. dont know what it would be about but i would love to write down some things that would illustrate some crazy images in the readers head. since im really arty and stuff ;) but so tommorow is friday, two classes, one optional. score. im about to go to bed though, so till next time....later days....

ahhhh...let me wind down and start writing.....so, last night i went to go see tbs and that was just spectacular, well atleast they were.....missed the first band just cause, on second was funeral for a friend and they were pretty good but the singers voice was all sorts of fucked up from yelling or screaming or singing or whatever you call that.....next was atreyu who had an amazing stage presence. they moved in sync with each other as they played a few jams and the two guitarist at one point played each others guitars while they were strapped to the other guy, so they were pretty gnarly but im really not into their band as a whole so that set wasnt to pleasing soundwise, visual, yeh they rocked.....taking back sunday graced the stage with thier presence and immediatly set the crowd on fire....they sounded nice and clear and every song on the set list was just old school sweet. taking back sunday owned it and played a good decently long set. the crowd was surprisngly tolerable....i thought at this show especially since tbs got a little fame there was going to be drunk frat guys who want to start fights and young gay fat fangirls who listened to carson daly when he told them to listen to jarul way back when he was real cool....note to JA-your not cool......that ends that night.....next was today or yesterday or monday even i had three classes, they were pretty tolerable as well, like the tbs crowd.....got a little dinner and saw the village for desert....village was pretty good, id like to watch again to get it a little more, but i got the main idea.....than after all that fun stuff, came back to the "crib" and watched a little movie called "overboard" staring kurt russell who i swore was patrick swayze, but caitlyn begged to differ and swore it wasnt good ol' patrick, ofcourse, yet again, i was wrong.....since for some reason i always tend to be wrong, funny how that works, yes, i admit it, i paul peracchia, was wrong....i dont come with music recomendations this entry, sorry. i am going to stop writing though, so till next time.....later days.....