"can’t afford to be just one in a flock"
one more day
Thursday, October 30
what is this mood i always feel myself falling into week in and week out.....it feels like a mix between confused,depressed, and hopeless. i dont even no what to think anymore at all. i feel lost like im just walking around the globe with no real purpose. i mean sure i hav a purpose in life but finding that damn person is just flat out terrible. confused i am and confused i a gonna be. its crazy, honestly i dont even no what to write in this thing right now. getting yelled at constantly by my parents because the need someone to bark at when they get home is not one bit fun. this constant headache is not the best thing in the world. another thing i just love is how my parents try and force me to fold to what they want me to do. they made me take a terrible job that i would never ever want to work at.....and oh yeh hav i mentioned ive never even been there except when i went in for an application and interview. i start monday n its just fuckin gay.....than tues i hav a rehersal for modeling at 630 for a show on saturday at the concord mall....but im sure ill be scheduled for work or sumthing like that and i dont even no what the fuck to do about that......this could be one of the worst weeks of my life, no doubt. im listening to coheed right now and thank god for them keepin for keeping that last bit of sanity in me....im honestly about to lose it.....weekend should b nice and terrible considering im grounded......but 2morrow im goin to brand new only cause i had already bought my ticket and than ofcourse im gonna miss a party on sat..... and a good one at that but oh well
lets just say my penny is on tails
lets just say my penny is on tails
written by paulyP at 06:48 pm
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